I was all over the place on Friday. I was processing from having a couple of wonderful therapy sessions on Thursday (Craniosacral and Raindrop) and I went in to my self-defense class on Friday. Because it’s an intense class, it tends to bring up deep-seated issues of mine. And it did. I left quite “activated” by the time I left and had difficulty resourcing myself.
While mentally I knew that I would get through it and would feel strong and clear again, I had difficulty connecting my mental awareness with my body awareness. Eventually I would have settled enough to take care of myself, but in the meantime, I wouldn’t have been as productive or present for everyone around me. I needed help. That was my resource. I called a peer who practices Matrix Energetics and he had an opening. (I expected that he would since I needed help. God knew I was going to need help so he made sure the time slot was open for me.) The Matrix Energetics did the trick. It was beautiful. I feel that I’ve gotten to a deeper layer of some similar issues I’ve been trying to work through, and now have a sense of feeling stronger at those deeper layers. I don’t quite feel strong at those layers yet, but I do feel like I can handle the kind of issues that I’ve been trying to work through.
As I continue to process the changes happening within me, I continue to have the mental awareness that I will work through my “stuff” and that I will become stronger and wiser. This is the same for you too when you want to heal and grow. When we ask for help, it comes our way one way or another. That which we focus on is what attracts the forces that work in our lives. Hmmm, I just realized something. I sense that I need to ask myself the question;”Why do I tend to focus on what I don’t want instead of what I do want?”
In my case I have some diffiiculty working or thinking in positive terms when it comes to myself, even though I’m a very positive person. Wow, I must be screwed up to be experiencing this one 
. In other words, I’ll tend to think, ” I don’t want to be afraid” framing my thoughts in the negative instead of ” I want to be courageous” which in framing my thoughts in the positive. Framing in the positive attracts the positive forces to heal in the direction of courage. Otherwise, my subconscious is still holding to the negative forces of fear.
Looks like I’ve got a new step to climb. This will be an interesting experience to work on. Whew. And here I thought life was about to get boring….NOT.
How about you? Do you need to ask yourself a question? Do you want to? This is something you tune into your inner wisdom, the touch of the Holy Spirit within you. Easiest way that I know of is to say a prayer for God’s guidance and help, and then just let yourself be open to what comes. Make sure you are relaxed. Watch your breath go in and out of your body until you feel yourself settle and you start to have a wider sense of awareness, such as that you have more of a sense of the space that fills the whole room. Then follow your breath into your body and remain there and listen. This whole process may take anywhere from a few minutes to 20 minutes or so, depending on your experience with meditation or body awareness exercises.
Tune your intent to the Holy Spirit and open your mind like you do when you’re are listening to someone say something interesting. Just hang out there and wait. Hold your intent on what question you need to ask yourself, hold yourself open, listen, and wait. Something will come. You will know it’s it and that it’s right when the awareness of it gives you a sense of peace or an enlightened epiphany that you can use wisely.
I’ll keep doing my part to grow and heal from this past Friday’s experience so that I may be there for others. Hopefully, this past Friday’s (Nov. 7th) challenge will also help you.
Blessings,
Irene
Tags: holy spirit, matrix energetics, resourcing
