I received a surprise today.

About a couple of weeks ago I received an email forward regarding the healthcare bill HR3200. I researched all the claims on the forward and found them to be true or a few that appeared to be true but I wasn’t positive because of the difficulty in understanding sections of the bill. I let my contacts know what I found and I received a very angry letter from one of my contacts. This took me by surprise because I was working with the facts presented before me as stated in the bill. So I asked God to help me understand this. I am a very understanding person, but it was hard for me to understand how someone could blow off facts and then turn it into a personal attack without even verifying that what I said was true. Ok, so what’s it all about?

As I opened to God’s Love and guidance, I dropped into my heart and opened it up by feeling the love I do for people I know. What I received was not what I was expecting. I received that I needn’t worry about understanding right now. My job was to love her regardless of her rejection. So I worked it and briefly held love for her. It was hard. However, opening up my heart that way did lead me to holding a continual sense of appreciation for her though. I guess that’s a good start.

I checked back in again. This time my heart went to compassion and sympathy to her. I opened to feeling love for her and it resumed and for just a little longer. The compassion and sympathy remained, although there was also an awareness of frustration thrown in too.

I have thought before that maybe this is why the world has so much pain. People don’t take the time to remember the love within us before we say or act. Jesus said to love each other and God as primary to all else. Isn’t that simplicity and truth in its finest form? It may not be easy, especially when we don’t practice it regularly, but doesn’t love itself make it the most worthwhile endeavor?

One more time.

This time I got deeper and my feelings and awareness were all over the place. There was a stronger awareness that my job was to just love her and not worry about it. She has to have her experiences and my job is to let go and love. I sensed my anger at being attacked when I did nothing wrong. I continued to feel compassion and sympathy towards her, like one might feel for a lost child. I felt love for her, but it was still brief. Appreciation for her continued. Frustration continued but decreased. And forgiveness came up. I worked to forgive her and made good progress. I know that there is still more that I need to let go though, otherwise I would be thinking, “there’s nothing to forgive”. I’ll get there, because I have chosen to do so. I feel for her and wish to harbor nothing that impedes me from the truth of God’s vision of me. I choose love.

I guess that’s what it’s all about.

Blessings,

Irene