I’ve never understood why the Bible says to fear the Lord. Our Lord Jesus taught us to love God and each other. And fear is the way tyrants keep control.

So how does “fearing God” teach us how to become closer to Him?

I assume it’s a metaphor for respect, but it’s a sucky one at that. (Something lost in translation maybe?)

Why would I fear God when it is He that gives me life and and love? Why should anyone fear the One who graces us with All that He Is? It is with God that our safety lies. Anything less cannot protect us as well as He can. It is His spirit within us that graces us with the ability to know love, the power behind everlasting life.

All we have to do is let Him. Let Him grace us with His Love and His Truth. It will come in pieces and much of it we won’t understand. But we can take comfort in the big picture.

I remember a story about a teenage daughter asking her mother about how to trust in God. Her mother was making a cake and asked her daughter if she would like some. The daughter said yes. So her mother offered her some raw flour. “Eww” said the daughter. “How about some (raw) eggs?” asked the mother. “Double yuck,” the daughter replied.

“That is how God works. It’s hard to see the big picture while we’re in the middle of something. But His plan is perfect, just like the cake will be when all the right ingredients are mixed together the way they need to be.”

Now that’s a good metaphor!

Blessings

Irene

Expectations are those things that we want in the way that we think we want them. But when we say a prayer asking for something, God knows best to what we want. We only think we do. Letting go of how we envision our prayer fulfillment and letting Him work His magic for us can be very difficult.

When we set up expectations, we limit ourselves to what is currently in our perception. But our Lord’s perception and awareness is infinite. How much more then can we be gifted when we allow ourselves to open up to that infinity and all that He wishes to give us?

God answers prayers in one of three ways:

Yes, Not yet, and I have something better in mind.

So wouldn’t that mean that the more we trust in God and what He knows instead of what we think we know, then the easier and more fulfilled our prayers become?

I’m not saying it’s easy, only simple. But like everything else, it takes practice to learn how to let go. I know that I still have much to learn and am appreciative of life’s challenges that provide such opportunities before me. That part has gotten much easier for me. After all, it’s all a part of riding His Hand.

Trusting in Him so that our partnership can grow into a vision in His name will yield what we want. But this way, it will be exactly what we want.

Blessings

Irene

So at the beginning of December 2010 I went to my practitioner certification course in Matrix Energetics®. I had to retake Levels 1 and 2 that weekend and then had the Practitioner Certification course during the week. It was a miraculous 6 days for me.

Matrix Energetics® is a consciousness technology, the art of transformation, and playing with the quantum fields to create change. If we want something changed, Matrix Energetics® is a great way to do that. It’s a lot like being a little kid. It’s a matter of asking questions, noticing what we notice, and playing with whatever we notice in whatever way our intuition or awareness is guided. And then letting it go and trusting.

Everything that I do in regards to the healing facilitation is about letting go and letting God. Only the skills and tools are different. Whether it’s Matrix Energetics®, biodynamic craniosacral therapy, or spiritual and self-healing coaching, I facilitate them all by being open to God’s guidance and love, listening, trusting, letting awareness expand, and letting it go into His hands.

But in trying to work through some remaining issues of mine, I went to class with a tall list of goals, that is, things to work through and let go of. I also went with faith, trust, and openness.

The first couple of days I was well aware that I was holding onto “my stuff” while enjoying the learning and fun that Dr. Bartlett’s classes hold. I was aware that I was wrapped up in my wanting to “get it” that I wasn’t holding the depth of presence I more commonly do. But I had faith and trusted in God and just went with the flow and allowed myself the experience as it was.

During the second day I was standing in back drinking some hot cocoa during the lecture. As is commonly done throughout the course, people are requested to come on stage. The instructors go by intuition to determine who gets called up and almost never request volunteers. (Once people see what happens on stage, getting called up is a pretty common desire.)

I was called up for the first time. I looked behind me to see if there was someone else behind me in red, but she said something like, “Yeah, you who’s looking behind you”.

Another neat thing about the matrix programs is that while there are certain points that they know to cover, they teach spontaneously. They have information and references for whatever may come up. But they basically teach according to how things come up, which is perfect and beautiful because it means that each class is catered and customized to the students attending at that time.

So when I went on stage Melissa looked at me and began to comment on how Matrix Energetics® is not just for physical conditions, but for the emotional or spiritual as well.

I’m happy that I was able to be the example of that. Even though others may or may not have gotten that that’s where I was coming from (emotional/mental), that’s what came to her to share at that time and she was spot on in my case.

She then very gently and barely touched me and I went into Frequency 18. (The frequencies are something that we are taught in Level 1 and one of the many tools available to us.) F18 is known as the Kundalini energy and people have gone into spontaneous yoga postures while in F18 even if they’ve never done yoga before. I, for some blessed reason, easily go into 18 and the spontaneous yoga postures. Although I do yoga, I haven’t been doing it regularly for months and I can never get as deeply or as easily or as comfortably into postures as I can when I’m in F18. People were oohing and ahhing and I would love to have seen what I looked like. But I am happy with having had the incredible experience, because it felt sooo incredibly good. While in F18 it’s kind of like being in a meditative state. I’m aware of all that’s going on around me, but I’m so internalized that I couldn’t tell you what lecture Melissa continued with while I was twisting around on stage. I know that I did some pretty deep back bends and I did the splits while in a headstand. That was a first and it was the easiest, the most comfortable, and the longest held headstand I’ve ever done. I realized, “So this is what a headstand is really supposed to feel like.” There was no struggle with the headstand. Only a natural ease.

When I got off stage my legs were like jello and it felt like something had broken off/ let go, even though I don’t know what.

As most of you probably know, whenever something is right for us or holds truth for us, we grow into it. So with each segment and exercise, things happened. Each person’s experience is unique to them and the changes can be profound.

During one of the evening forums, an elderly lady was called on stage. As she went on stage, I remember sensing her as compressed, as though the weight of the world was on her in some way. She also felt timid to me, and not as mobile as she could be. There was also another sense of something that I still have a hard time articulating other than I found it somewhat put offing.  I remember thinking that this was probably not someone I’d likely be friends with. I thought that a strange thought and not like me and focused on being open.

Dr. Garcia did what he does and we found out that she had had a blood transfusion decades ago. Apparently, blood transfusions or organ donations can have a major effect on someone if the two consciousnesses don’t come into harmony. Why they don’t come into harmony was not a matter here. But apparently it’s common that they don’t and that can lead to a person not feeling like themselves, or like they’re not in their body which was her case if I recall correctly. Dr Garcia played with the fields and did what he does, and she changed over the course of several minutes. We could all sense or see the changes. She seemed taller, more confident, more like herself. She was also keenly aware of the changes and how she felt. That sense that she had that something wasn’t her was gone. She smiled.

My last night there, I met this fine lady and we had dinner together. I am still amazed at how this is in a sense the same person that I saw on stage. But now in front of me was a vibrant, confident, intelligent, and well adjusted lady that I knew I could learn much from. She seemed 15 years younger to me and ready to move forward. It seemed nothing could stop her.

It became clear to me why God had allowed such a strange thought to come into my mind. It provided me with another clear experience of how profound matrix energetics has the potential to be. I love this stuff!

During the latter part of the course, we were playing with one of our exercises of the day. For the 3^rd and almost last time of the course, I went into F18, but not yoga postures this time. This time I found myself twisting or contorting into something strange. I very much felt the need to move in a certain twisted way, but felt like my body just wouldn’t move that way. I focused on letting go and waited and let myself twist as needed. Suddenly, something changed. I don’t know what but it felt within me somehow. I suddenly untwisted, but it felt like I was moving beyond that point that I was trying to twist. I extended and stood up and then stomped fiercely while turning in circles while my hands were clenched. It definitely felt like I was unwinding something. There were sounds of rage coming from me and I just kept “unwinding” until I felt I was done, about a minute later. I stopped turning and at this point my attention was drawn to my clenched hands. I had two thoughts going through my mind. One was “Just open my hands.” The other was, “I don’t want to open my hands.” I repeated these to myself several times. There was a very physical sense that I could not open my hands, but I also knew that I could. After the 3^rd time I made myself open my hands. As soon as I had done so, and immediately upon doing so, I had a vision of a hawk’s tethers being dropped to the floor. Something made me scream at that exact moment I saw the tethers drop. There was a fright or shock of some kind. I don’t know what. Something had happened. Something was different, but I didn’t know what at the time. But over the next several days I experienced it. I felt it.

I was different. I changed. The depth of faith, peace, calm, and trusting in God had reached new levels of awareness. Serendipity followed me everywhere. At times I went moment to moment noticing how God was being with me and working through and around me. And the depth of love that I feel for others also deepened. Also changed was the emotional charge to my political beliefs. While my resolve to strengthen and protect our great country remains in full, the emotional charge of anger at those who wish to turn it into a socialist or statist nation is gone. It’s simply so much easier to see more of God in everyone and everything compared to before.

And most of the changes that I experienced at class have remained. There has been a little regression, but only a little. I am still all the positive changes that I became over those 6 days of class. Just not as deeply as the awareness I held my last day there and the next 3 after that, but it’s close.

I can never again be who I was before I went to class. I can only continue to grow in His name.   Thank you, Lord!

Peace, Love, and Blessings,

Irene

Accepting a helping hand or steadfastness of a friend standing with you are metaphors for trust. This is much like what it is when we trust God, for our Lord is always there with His helping hand and standing with us when we need support. Deep and profound healing requires trust as our systems use it as a resource for healing. We need to feel safe when we undergo the healing process. And the greatest safety lies in trusting in God. Where is our safety if all else is weaker than God and we look elsewhere?

This does not mean to not trust someone that we do, because it is His Spirit within us that gives us life. When the Spirit is partnered with one’s consciousness and heart, they are most certainly trustworthy. But it does mean to let ourselves be open to unknown Truth He holds for us. Our limited awareness tends to create expectations about how things are supposed to be instead of letting God’s love create a whole new world for us by being open to His infinite possibilities. And it is within one of these unknown possibilities that the healing we need can be accessed.

Once we learn how to settle and center ourselves into a state of presence and stillness, then we can access different parts of our system that want help. I always begin with prayer, and then open myself to listening to what comes. The question becomes to notice what I notice or observe. When I notice a part of me that feels “off” or “not right” somehow, I use my trust in God to allow it to heal.

Notice that I didn’t say, “make it heal”, but rather to allow it. I let go and let God. I hold in my awareness the piece requesting help and the intention of letting go and letting God, knowing that healing will happen. I know that that the Holy Spirit will work it’s magic as that is the nature of God’s Love. It is the healing power. So it simply does what love does if we let it. And healing happens.

It’s something that anybody can do. It just takes some education and practice, just like anything else worth doing.

Blessings,

Irene

(Graced to me tonight as I opened myself to God and listened.)

Blessings,

Irene

Letting go is a conscious decision allowed by the awareness of trust.

Letting it flow is still a matter of trust. Once we let it go, then it’s time to observe and enjoy the show of whatever we are aware of or experiencing, because it is then that the process of His creating is allowed to be.

I continue to work to allow God’s Love flow through me that I may a part of His creative Hand. Like I said, it’s easier said than done. But like anything else, it’s a matter of practice. It’s the practicing that opens the doors to the miracles. And every miracle always makes it worthwhile.

Blessings,
Irene

I’ve made a decision.

Most of us know that negative attitudes keep us down and positive attitudes lift us up. And I have been struggling with my desire to grow my business, be domestic, homeschool, grow myself, and never seem to have enough time to do it all. I’ve asked myself where can I have more time and there’s not much leeway. I have complained in my mind and out loud a several times over the past several months. But I’ve been trying not too because I’ve been trying to break myself of that limiting mindset. I’ve been trying to figure out how to break free of feeling overwhelmed and still be able to get everything done that I want, need, and should.

As a child of God, I am a cocreator in His plan. Because of God’s Love, I am given free will and the power of choice. So I have decided, rather, I have chosen that I will have it all. God wants me to know abundance, so ok, I accept. I will be true to who I am and as God guides me. If He has put into my heart that I want to do all these things, then I will. God does not make a path for me that I cannot travel (Ephesians 3:20). So I have the full support of God’s Love to help me. My dominating thoughts on the matter are no longer “I don’t see how I can do this”, but now they are “Ok, Lord. What’s next? I feel drawn this way, so lead the way and show me how it’s done.”

I have reframed my perspective. In doing so, I no longer feel “can’t” but instead feel “Yes, I can.” With which attitude do you think I’m going to be more efficient, productive, and happier? Can you apply similar principles to something going on in your life? What recurring negative thoughts do you have that you might be able to reframe?

Call on God’s Love to guide you how to reframe something and let it become a liberating and empowering experience. After all, if you knew how to rise above your challenge, you would have already done so. God knows what you need. Call on our Lord and know that because of God’s Love, you will be heard and answered, although not necessarily in the way you may expect. Be open and trust. Let yourself be open to listening to the Truth held in God’s Love.

Remember, Love is all that matters and God’s Love is all that we want. Opening yourselves to that will bring you more of what you want.

I say yes to that. What do you say?

Blessings,

Irene

I went to a Women’s Leadership Symposium the other day for the first time. It was a worthwhile experience in that I learned some great information and met some great people. There were also perceptions that I didn’t agree with, and that was good too.

One of the things I remember the most was about how, in general, women have stronger “likeability” needs than men do. (Whether this is true or not I do not know.) And that as long as we worry about what others think about us or let what others think about us devert us from who we truly are, then we are still giving our power to others.

That hit home and I needed to hear it. I love how God works. His timing is always a miracle in itself. It is God’s Love that created the forces for me to hear what I needed to hear. I’ve been aware that I have concerns about what others think about me, and I’ve been asking our Lord how to break myself free of such concerns. I had not, however, realized that by holding myself back, I was giving power to others. This greater awareness is a huge step in my process of breaking free from these issues and fears of mine. The next step is prayer, since I’m not clear on what’s next in my growth process.

I know to trust in God and let myself be. When you let yourself be, then you are open to the grace and flow of God’s guidance. At least that has been my experience. My challenge is to trust myself to understand how God’s Love guides me and to let go of any guilt that comes up from not feeling “good enough”.

I’m sure none of you have ever felt this way.

So while I know that I’m fine the way that I am and so is everyone else, I deal with old crap just like the rest of us do. But I will not give up, I will learn to Be, and I will Become. I will let myself be open to God’s Love and all of life’s experiences. For that is the only way to feel alive. Anything else is just survival. So I will pray and be open. That is my next step. And I will take the one after that and so on.

How about you? What is your next step?

Are you going to take it?

Is the alternative better, or is the alternative the same old stuff?

I guess it comes down to what do you want and what are you ready for?

Whatever God has brought us to, God has also given us the power to get through it. And we will. It is by the nature of God’s Love that He will bring us to that which we will get through.

That works for me.

Thank you, Lord.

Blessings,

Irene

Most people don’t like change. I completely understand because I used to be the same way. But I grew weary of stagnation and learned how to welcome change as opportunities. Sometimes it’s easy and other times I am breaking through deep held barriers within myself piece by piece. Very hard stuff but worth it. I know that it will lead me to something better, so I welcome it (although it may take me a while).

Once we learn that all opportunities/challenges are gifts from God, it becomes easier to let go of our holdings and let Him guide us to that something better. And that something better is always God’s Grace and Love encompassing all that we want and are becoming if we let ourselves. Within His Grace and Love is what our awareness of faith, trust, love, forgiveness, joy, compassion, and everything else beautiful comes from.

It seems that it would be simple to let ourselves trust God and the process of how things work in life knowing that His promises to us will be fulfilled. But often it is not. We’ve been hurt, disappointed, betrayed, traumatized, sick, and all the other “negative” things that cause us to put up protective layers within ourselves. These protective layers are walls that we cannot see through and they blind us from seeing God and His work in our lives. Many of us are completely unaware that we have these protective layers. So how do we let go so that we can let in the Love of God?

There is no easy answer for this other than it can be done. But it takes time and work. I have been making a conscious effort to grow and learn who God Is for 15 years now and on and off when I was a child. (I went through a period of 12 years of being an atheist so growth was considerably slowed during that time.) So the first step is wanting to learn and grow. The key is relating our trust in God to what we want.  In other words, know what you want (goal) and ask God to help you get it. It is the setting of a goal that gets the forces rolling, just like in business or an athletic endeavor or anything in life. When we have a goal, then the steps to accomplish it become more clear. Without a goal, we wander. (And there is a difference between wandering aimlessly where others control you and wandering with the intent to experience life.)

The second step is to listen. Listening is a skill that may come easy for some people, but it is a skill that many people lack or have a hard time learning. I used to be a terrible listener, at least by my current standards. And while I’ve improved my listening skills phenomenally, I still have a long way to go to be the kind of listener that I envision myself to be. So for some it will take longer than others. The key is being in a still place within yourself (Psalm 46:10) and opening yourself to “hearing” what God says to you. This might come as a body sense, or an image, or a word, or a feeling. Open up just like when we are listening to a friend or speaker or anyone that we want to hear what they have to say, but we don’t know what they are going to say. We must be open to hear what we are trying to listen to. Otherwise it is like learning from one of the primary colors instead of the clear white light information that is all encompassing and what we need.

And the third step is to then let it go (trust God) and let yourself live (trust yourself). You have asked God for help, so you can trust the Holy Spirit to guide you. Do what feels right to you so that you’re able to have a good nights sleep and have peace in your soul about whatever decision you make. Trust your heart and your gut. The Holy Spirit communicates to us through our bodies. What decision will give you the greatest sense of peace? What decision, when you look back on it later in life, would you agree was the right decision?

This listening and then trusting are what needs to happen for any real growth. Just like a snail in the water holds on tight so the tide doesn’t wash it away, we hold on tight to what we know out of fear of what might happen if we don’t.

We must be willing to lose sight of the shore in order to discover new oceans (author unknown).

So if we listen to how we feel ourselves guided, and then trust the process of letting God do His work through us by living our lives with conscious awareness of God, then things will happen in our favor. It is unavoidable. We asked God for help. If our hearts were sincere, the request cannot be denied because that would go against the nature of God’s Love.

Piece by piece things will happen that will guide you to what you want, knowing who you are, and help your relationship with God grow. As each piece that helps you grow happens, things change and prayers get updated and the cycle of growth continues. It is a lifelong process, dynamic, freeing, and empowering when aligned with God and His Love.

Blessings,

Irene

It comes down to the desire to grow, and by trusting in God. Trusting in God is a skill that is learned that comes from letting go of held pains. Forgiveness, regret, fear, and the like are just a few of the painful things we hold within ourselves. Our feelings are legitimate, but that doesn’t mean we’re not holding ourselves back by living our lives according to things that happened in the past. And it takes work to learn how to let go. It comes easier to some than others, but I have yet to meet anyone that says it’s easy. But there are so many options and opportunities of things we can do and think to help ourselves want to grow, trust, let go, and be open.

Since both a willingness to grow and the ability to trust are key to having the courage to open ourselves to the unknown, we need to do what we need to do to help ourselves move in that direction. Journaling one’s goals and pushing through some mental or emotional barrier might be what one person needs, while another might need long walks and the Good Book. It’s always personal and has no right or wrong about it. What matters is our intent. Do we intend to grow and become as God sees us, or do we intend to keep ourselves comfortable in our familiarity? When we are ready then we need to do what we need to do to grow in Jesus’s name. Only you and God know what that is. (That does include that God may work through someone to bring to your awareness what you need. Trust your heart for that is the touch of the Holy Spirit.)

I had a client recently who has had some serious trauma and has had some difficulty settling deep enough to have the kind of incredible sessions that the Biodynamic Craniosacral work that I do can do. I’ve always held my clients in my awareness while being centered and present, but a new sense of depth within myself came to me during this particular session. (We’ll refer to my client as Bob. Obviously not my client’s real name.)

I held in my intent to be there for Bob as he needed me to so that his system could settle and relax where his natural healing ability could do what it knew to do. I always hold this intent, but this time I held it at a deeper layer of openness to God’s guidance, and the awareness came to me to hold him with my whole self, instead of just from a center from within myself. So as I held him in my awareness, I also tuned into my body to see what felt tight and what felt right. The areas that felt tight or as if they had difficulty breathing, I invited to relax and be open and I waited. All parts that came up relaxed and let go. As these parts of me let go, I then held Bob in my awareness from these parts of me also. I worked it so that my system as a whole held him in my awareness as a whole. His system settled and relaxed as the presence that I held for him resonated with his system, and he fell asleep within several minutes of the beginning of the session. His system then did some beautiful healing work.

If I had not been open to God’s guidance, then the wonderful healing work that Bob’s system did could not have happened. The only real reason we keep ourselves from being open or opening up is because we’re afraid of getting hurt. I’m not saying that people holding themselves back out of fear is a bad thing. God gave us defense mechanisms for a reason and everything has its right time. But if we want to change for the better, then something has to change. The best way to know change for the better is to be willing to experience life. It takes an openness to new opportunities that God has available to us to be able to grow in His love. Some of those opportunities will feel like Grace, while others might feel like you’re trying to get your head above water.

Remember that it is our natural state to float above the water. If we feel that we are sinking, then that is our negative mindset that is creating that sense of reality. We may have hardship, but how we feel about that is our decision.

God gave us His Spirit within us. With God, all things are possible. Why deny ourselves His gifts? All His gifts are based on His Love. So when we open ourselves to His Truth and something ends up hurting, it’s a life experience that will help us to grow and learn into who and what we want. If we try to run away from it, we are denying God’s help in our lives. If we accept it as the gift that it is (whether if feels positive or negative), then we learn the power of grace, love, and faith.

Since God is Love, and with faith we have everything, then we have the potential to know and be all the power that there is. God’s Spirit is within us as His children. Why deny such a beautiful gift? If we honor such a gift, then we honor our Creator. It’s just a matter of being open to His Love, and being grateful for His Love to let the pathways of His Truth and true power flow through us. The power of Love is known by being open to His Love for us. Nothing is more powerful or beautiful than that. And that is worth fighting for.

I open myself to the Love of God.

Thank you, Lord, for all the miracles of the day, small and large.

I pray you will also want to open your heart and mind to God’s Love.

Blessings,

Irene