So at the beginning of December 2010 I went to my practitioner certification course in Matrix Energetics®. I had to retake Levels 1 and 2 that weekend and then had the Practitioner Certification course during the week. It was a miraculous 6 days for me.

Matrix Energetics® is a consciousness technology, the art of transformation, and playing with the quantum fields to create change. If we want something changed, Matrix Energetics® is a great way to do that. It’s a lot like being a little kid. It’s a matter of asking questions, noticing what we notice, and playing with whatever we notice in whatever way our intuition or awareness is guided. And then letting it go and trusting.

Everything that I do in regards to the healing facilitation is about letting go and letting God. Only the skills and tools are different. Whether it’s Matrix Energetics®, biodynamic craniosacral therapy, or spiritual and self-healing coaching, I facilitate them all by being open to God’s guidance and love, listening, trusting, letting awareness expand, and letting it go into His hands.

But in trying to work through some remaining issues of mine, I went to class with a tall list of goals, that is, things to work through and let go of. I also went with faith, trust, and openness.

The first couple of days I was well aware that I was holding onto “my stuff” while enjoying the learning and fun that Dr. Bartlett’s classes hold. I was aware that I was wrapped up in my wanting to “get it” that I wasn’t holding the depth of presence I more commonly do. But I had faith and trusted in God and just went with the flow and allowed myself the experience as it was.

During the second day I was standing in back drinking some hot cocoa during the lecture. As is commonly done throughout the course, people are requested to come on stage. The instructors go by intuition to determine who gets called up and almost never request volunteers. (Once people see what happens on stage, getting called up is a pretty common desire.)

I was called up for the first time. I looked behind me to see if there was someone else behind me in red, but she said something like, “Yeah, you who’s looking behind you”.

Another neat thing about the matrix programs is that while there are certain points that they know to cover, they teach spontaneously. They have information and references for whatever may come up. But they basically teach according to how things come up, which is perfect and beautiful because it means that each class is catered and customized to the students attending at that time.

So when I went on stage Melissa looked at me and began to comment on how Matrix Energetics® is not just for physical conditions, but for the emotional or spiritual as well.

I’m happy that I was able to be the example of that. Even though others may or may not have gotten that that’s where I was coming from (emotional/mental), that’s what came to her to share at that time and she was spot on in my case.

She then very gently and barely touched me and I went into Frequency 18. (The frequencies are something that we are taught in Level 1 and one of the many tools available to us.) F18 is known as the Kundalini energy and people have gone into spontaneous yoga postures while in F18 even if they’ve never done yoga before. I, for some blessed reason, easily go into 18 and the spontaneous yoga postures. Although I do yoga, I haven’t been doing it regularly for months and I can never get as deeply or as easily or as comfortably into postures as I can when I’m in F18. People were oohing and ahhing and I would love to have seen what I looked like. But I am happy with having had the incredible experience, because it felt sooo incredibly good. While in F18 it’s kind of like being in a meditative state. I’m aware of all that’s going on around me, but I’m so internalized that I couldn’t tell you what lecture Melissa continued with while I was twisting around on stage. I know that I did some pretty deep back bends and I did the splits while in a headstand. That was a first and it was the easiest, the most comfortable, and the longest held headstand I’ve ever done. I realized, “So this is what a headstand is really supposed to feel like.” There was no struggle with the headstand. Only a natural ease.

When I got off stage my legs were like jello and it felt like something had broken off/ let go, even though I don’t know what.

As most of you probably know, whenever something is right for us or holds truth for us, we grow into it. So with each segment and exercise, things happened. Each person’s experience is unique to them and the changes can be profound.

During one of the evening forums, an elderly lady was called on stage. As she went on stage, I remember sensing her as compressed, as though the weight of the world was on her in some way. She also felt timid to me, and not as mobile as she could be. There was also another sense of something that I still have a hard time articulating other than I found it somewhat put offing.  I remember thinking that this was probably not someone I’d likely be friends with. I thought that a strange thought and not like me and focused on being open.

Dr. Garcia did what he does and we found out that she had had a blood transfusion decades ago. Apparently, blood transfusions or organ donations can have a major effect on someone if the two consciousnesses don’t come into harmony. Why they don’t come into harmony was not a matter here. But apparently it’s common that they don’t and that can lead to a person not feeling like themselves, or like they’re not in their body which was her case if I recall correctly. Dr Garcia played with the fields and did what he does, and she changed over the course of several minutes. We could all sense or see the changes. She seemed taller, more confident, more like herself. She was also keenly aware of the changes and how she felt. That sense that she had that something wasn’t her was gone. She smiled.

My last night there, I met this fine lady and we had dinner together. I am still amazed at how this is in a sense the same person that I saw on stage. But now in front of me was a vibrant, confident, intelligent, and well adjusted lady that I knew I could learn much from. She seemed 15 years younger to me and ready to move forward. It seemed nothing could stop her.

It became clear to me why God had allowed such a strange thought to come into my mind. It provided me with another clear experience of how profound matrix energetics has the potential to be. I love this stuff!

During the latter part of the course, we were playing with one of our exercises of the day. For the 3^rd and almost last time of the course, I went into F18, but not yoga postures this time. This time I found myself twisting or contorting into something strange. I very much felt the need to move in a certain twisted way, but felt like my body just wouldn’t move that way. I focused on letting go and waited and let myself twist as needed. Suddenly, something changed. I don’t know what but it felt within me somehow. I suddenly untwisted, but it felt like I was moving beyond that point that I was trying to twist. I extended and stood up and then stomped fiercely while turning in circles while my hands were clenched. It definitely felt like I was unwinding something. There were sounds of rage coming from me and I just kept “unwinding” until I felt I was done, about a minute later. I stopped turning and at this point my attention was drawn to my clenched hands. I had two thoughts going through my mind. One was “Just open my hands.” The other was, “I don’t want to open my hands.” I repeated these to myself several times. There was a very physical sense that I could not open my hands, but I also knew that I could. After the 3^rd time I made myself open my hands. As soon as I had done so, and immediately upon doing so, I had a vision of a hawk’s tethers being dropped to the floor. Something made me scream at that exact moment I saw the tethers drop. There was a fright or shock of some kind. I don’t know what. Something had happened. Something was different, but I didn’t know what at the time. But over the next several days I experienced it. I felt it.

I was different. I changed. The depth of faith, peace, calm, and trusting in God had reached new levels of awareness. Serendipity followed me everywhere. At times I went moment to moment noticing how God was being with me and working through and around me. And the depth of love that I feel for others also deepened. Also changed was the emotional charge to my political beliefs. While my resolve to strengthen and protect our great country remains in full, the emotional charge of anger at those who wish to turn it into a socialist or statist nation is gone. It’s simply so much easier to see more of God in everyone and everything compared to before.

And most of the changes that I experienced at class have remained. There has been a little regression, but only a little. I am still all the positive changes that I became over those 6 days of class. Just not as deeply as the awareness I held my last day there and the next 3 after that, but it’s close.

I can never again be who I was before I went to class. I can only continue to grow in His name.   Thank you, Lord!

Peace, Love, and Blessings,

Irene

The Holy Spirit graced me with this one a couple of days ago. **Thank you, Lord** Thought you might enjoy it.

The mind is a powerful thing, but never as powerful as the heart.

Blessings
Irene

I received a surprise today.

About a couple of weeks ago I received an email forward regarding the healthcare bill HR3200. I researched all the claims on the forward and found them to be true or a few that appeared to be true but I wasn’t positive because of the difficulty in understanding sections of the bill. I let my contacts know what I found and I received a very angry letter from one of my contacts. This took me by surprise because I was working with the facts presented before me as stated in the bill. So I asked God to help me understand this. I am a very understanding person, but it was hard for me to understand how someone could blow off facts and then turn it into a personal attack without even verifying that what I said was true. Ok, so what’s it all about?

As I opened to God’s Love and guidance, I dropped into my heart and opened it up by feeling the love I do for people I know. What I received was not what I was expecting. I received that I needn’t worry about understanding right now. My job was to love her regardless of her rejection. So I worked it and briefly held love for her. It was hard. However, opening up my heart that way did lead me to holding a continual sense of appreciation for her though. I guess that’s a good start.

I checked back in again. This time my heart went to compassion and sympathy to her. I opened to feeling love for her and it resumed and for just a little longer. The compassion and sympathy remained, although there was also an awareness of frustration thrown in too.

I have thought before that maybe this is why the world has so much pain. People don’t take the time to remember the love within us before we say or act. Jesus said to love each other and God as primary to all else. Isn’t that simplicity and truth in its finest form? It may not be easy, especially when we don’t practice it regularly, but doesn’t love itself make it the most worthwhile endeavor?

One more time.

This time I got deeper and my feelings and awareness were all over the place. There was a stronger awareness that my job was to just love her and not worry about it. She has to have her experiences and my job is to let go and love. I sensed my anger at being attacked when I did nothing wrong. I continued to feel compassion and sympathy towards her, like one might feel for a lost child. I felt love for her, but it was still brief. Appreciation for her continued. Frustration continued but decreased. And forgiveness came up. I worked to forgive her and made good progress. I know that there is still more that I need to let go though, otherwise I would be thinking, “there’s nothing to forgive”. I’ll get there, because I have chosen to do so. I feel for her and wish to harbor nothing that impedes me from the truth of God’s vision of me. I choose love.

I guess that’s what it’s all about.

Blessings,

Irene

But everything happens for a reason. (Thank you, Lord.) And even though I don’t know all the lessons of this one yet, I love how God works.

Tonight I began to write about something else but was having trouble letting it flow. Ok, I’ll ask God for guidance and pulled out my Bible, said a prayer, and randomly opened a page where I felt drawn to do so. I was drawn to 2 Corinthians 1:18-22, where it talks about how the word Amen means yes.

Ok, I get it. Time to mediprayer on this NOW. Cool.

So I did and here’s how I connected.

It is a word of miracles. It is the word of acceptance. When we say yes to God’s Love and His plan, we are being open to all that He wants to provide for us which is all the abundance and Truth that His infinite Love provides. By letting Jesus’s Love into our hearts, we learn who we truly are. “Yes” is about being true to the nature that God destined us to be. Saying yes to God is being the manifestation of the glory of God, because then there is nothing that can stop us from being just that.

Nelson Mandela said in his beautiful poem that we are here to manifest the glory of God.

Sounds like “Yes” is the greatest adventure of all.

And I’ll say Amen to that too.

Blessings,

Irene

I just got back a couple of days ago from Train the Trainor through Peak Potentials Training. I love this company! They are so great in so many ways! If ever you want to know about my personal experiences with them, let me know. I love to share about them.

This was my 2nd advanced class with Peak Potentials. It was a lot of fun, as usual, and it was also very hard for me. The class deals with public speaking, which is what I want to do, but am still working through some significant issues on the matter that make it difficult for me.

Have you heard how studies show that people are more afraid of public speaking than of death? While I’m not more afraid of public speaking than of death, I did have to deal with the issues deep within me it brought up and at times I felt over stressed. I tried to resource with my faith and my connection with God. It helped, but the activity was fast paced, so it wasn’t like I could meditate and calm my way through the process. I was aware that this was one of those times where we grow by dealing with and pushing through the pressure. I knew that this was what I needed and where I wanted to be, even though it was very hard for me.

At one point, I felt my nervous system trying to shut me down by making me feel very sleepy. I told myself, “NO! Focus!”. I kept on pushing through it until all of a sudden things started flowing much more easily. I knew I would make it through even though my issues were making me want to quit. And guess what? I did. I made it through as did everyone else. Peak Potentials have a great training program and I got what I needed and more. I made it through and learned what I needed so I can now take action to the next level much easier than I could before class. (Not that it’s easy, yet.)

What I did find somewhat surprising was how it was hard for me to feel my connection to God while I was stressed like I usually do. When at home, even under stress, I can feel His presence and feel strong in my relationship to Him. When I was stressed at class, it was more like my whole system knew He was there with me just because my relationship with Him has become such an unification with my life. However, I didn’t really feel Him there, and that took me by surprise. I understand that it was because of the very deep issues of mine that this class brought up for me, but I did not like that feeling of “disconnection”. While I have been aware that I still know much less than I do know, it made me aware that I still have much more to learn.

Very cool. A powerful and gentle reminder to be open. Yay for the graces that come from being open!

Blessings,

Irene

Do something…lead, follow, or get out of the way.

Tomorrow, I’ve got to quit procrastinating.

Here is a test to find whether your mission on earth is finished: If you’re alive, it isn’t.    Richard Bach

The mind, like a parachute, functions only when open.

Courage is the mastery of fear, not the absence of fear.

Forgiveness is the fragrance the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it.   Mark Twain

There are two ways of spreading light: To be the candle or the mirror that reflects it.  Edith Wharton

The block of granite which was an obstacle in the pathway of the weak becomes a stepping stone in the pathway of the strong.   Thomas Carlyle

It is better to light one candle than to curse the darkness.   Old Chinese Proverb

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.   Eleanor Roosevelt

Courage is having the faith to let Truth stand on its own.   Irene Arndt

Make sure the message of love gets through.   Dr. Jane Nelson  (author of Positive Discipline)

Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.   Ted Geisel (Dr. Seuss)

You cannot discover new oceans until you find the courage to lose sight of the shore.

The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.   Ephesians 3:20

Surrendering to God is not about relinquishing power. It’s about letting the power of God flow through you.  Irene Arndt

It is impossible to be angry while singing.

How you do anything in life is how you do everything.    T. Harv Ecker  (author of Secrets of the Millionaire Mind)

Be still and know that I am God.   Psalm 46:10

With God all things are possible.    Matt 19:26

Fear is a reaction. Courage is a decision.    Winston Churchill

When we are judging others, we have no time to love them. It is only in suspending judgement that open our heart to love and empower ourselves and each other.   Mother Teresa

…You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world….You were born to manifest the glory of God….      Nelson Mandela

Thanks, and have a great day!

Irene

While mentally I knew that I would get through it and would feel strong and clear again, I had difficulty connecting my mental awareness with my body awareness. Eventually I would have settled enough to take care of myself, but in the meantime, I wouldn’t have been as productive or present for everyone around me. I needed help. That was my resource. I called a peer who practices Matrix Energetics and he had an opening. (I expected that he would since I needed help. God knew I was going to need help so he made sure the time slot was open for me.) The Matrix Energetics did the trick. It was beautiful. I feel that I’ve gotten to a deeper layer of some similar issues I’ve been trying to work through, and now have a sense of feeling stronger at those deeper layers. I don’t quite feel strong at those layers yet, but I do feel like I can handle the kind of issues that I’ve been trying to work through.

As I continue to process the changes happening within me, I continue to have the mental awareness that I will work through my “stuff” and that I will become stronger and wiser.  This is the same for you too when you want to heal and grow. When we ask for help, it comes our way one way or another. That which we focus on is what attracts the forces that work in our lives. Hmmm, I just realized something. I sense that I need to ask myself the question;”Why do I tend to focus on what I don’t want instead of what I do want?”

In my case I have some diffiiculty working or thinking in positive terms when it comes to myself, even though I’m a very positive person. Wow, I must be screwed up to be experiencing this one . In other words, I’ll tend to think, ” I don’t want to be afraid” framing my thoughts in the negative instead of ” I want to be courageous” which in framing my thoughts in the positive. Framing in the positive attracts the positive forces to heal in the direction of courage. Otherwise, my subconscious is still holding to the negative forces of fear.

Looks like I’ve got a new step to climb. This will be an interesting experience to work on.  Whew. And here I thought life was about to get boring….NOT.

How about you? Do you need to ask yourself a question? Do you want to? This is something you tune into your inner wisdom, the touch of the Holy Spirit within you. Easiest way that I know of is to say a prayer for God’s guidance and help, and then just let yourself be open to what comes. Make sure you are relaxed. Watch your breath go in and out of your body until you feel yourself settle and you start to have a wider sense of awareness, such as that you have more of a sense of the space that fills the whole room. Then follow your breath into your body and remain there and listen. This whole process may take anywhere from a few minutes to 20 minutes or so, depending on your experience with meditation or body awareness exercises.

Tune your intent to the Holy Spirit and open your mind like you do when you’re are listening to someone say something interesting. Just hang out there and wait. Hold your intent on what question you need to ask yourself, hold yourself open, listen, and wait. Something will come. You will know it’s it and that it’s right when the awareness of it gives you a sense of peace or an enlightened epiphany that you can use wisely.

I’ll keep doing my part to grow and heal from this past Friday’s experience so that I may be there for others. Hopefully, this past Friday’s (Nov. 7th) challenge will also help you.

Blessings,

Irene

Today had a special touch to it.

On Tuesdays I take my son to classes at a local church (we homeschool). While he’s in class I tend to study, socialize, and walk our dog, Moose. While walking Moose we came upon another Mom with her toddler and baby boys walking them in the opposite direction in a double stroller. The little boys saw Moose approaching and smiled, made noises of glee, and reached out to him. When we met I asked their Mom if they’d like to say hi and she approved. I told Moose it was ok to say “Hi”.

Now Moose is a pretty big dog. So when the boys saw him from a distance, the toddler in front had his arms outstretched to him as he smiled. All of a sudden the toddler realizes that Moose is a lot bigger than he realized and his outstretched arms moved back into “I’m not as sure about this” body language. But Moose was Moose. I’ve seen him be very gentle and use his incredible intuition and instinct before, but his actions today were special.

As he approached the toddler, being about two feet away now, he approached slower and slower the closer he got. We stood there and watched as he ever so slowly and gently touched his nose to the toddler’s nose. The toddler let out a gleeful squeal and Moose slowly moved to the baby in back who still had his hand outstretched to Moose. Moose approached almost as slowly and touched his nose to the baby’s most outstretched finger. The baby was happy too.

Their Mom exclaimed, “That’s a good dog!”

It was a special moment filled with God’s grace. And I thank the Lord for such special moments.

Later, while still on the same walk, I noticed several crows flying above and near me. The winds had picked up a some and they were flying largely into the wind. They had no place to go because they were already home on the church’s roof. But they were flying, or rather gliding, so that they were in the wind but not going anywhere. They were positioning themselves in the wind to simply enjoy the sense of flight.

I have wondered if birds appreciated or enjoyed their flying ability. Now I’m sure that they do. They would use as minimal of wing movement as necessary. They would do only what they needed to stay in the same place for about 5 to 30 seconds at a time, just to enjoy that sense of flight and freedom.This is a gentle reminder to me to remember to practice stillness, for within this skill is the ability to sense the freedom of flight.

I’m sure that some people will find other reasons to explain this behavior. Maybe they are right. But it wasn’t just that I saw it. I also felt it. As I watched, I felt one crow in particular simply enjoying it. I couldn’t blame him. It looked more fun than any amusement ride ever could be. I find myself rather envious.

At least I can enjoy the crow enjoying his gift, and I thank God for that. Thank God for all the animals he gave us as our teachers and our friends. Life would be so boring without them.

Blessings,

Irene

So I’m not doing to well right now. I mean relatively speaking. I am well regardless of my concerns. But I feel tired, emotional, my eyes are sore for some reason, and my son is giving me attitude today about his schoolwork. Now, I’m not complaining but setting up the scenario under what I want to talk about today.

I noticed myself starting to settle into feeling down and noticed how easy it would be to let myself go even further down. I noticed the little thoughts creeping in my mind that paraphrased, “Poor me”.

Bull.

I choose my thoughts and those thoughts lead to my feelings. Then my feelings lead to my actions. So I have concerns and stresses. I will deal with them. I have support around me. I am loving, intelligent and competent. I have God. With God all things are possible. There are no limits except the ones I impose upon myself. This is me resourcing myself and I will continue to do so and move forward.

Do you teach yourself to be resourceful when feeling down? It’s easier to let ourselves feel down, I know. For years it was what I practiced subconsciously. It’s hard work to resource and snap out of it. But don’t you want to feel better than to feel worse? Isn’t it worth the hard work if it means being in a better place than before? Isn’t that why we work hard to try and make a better life for our families and those around us? It’s the same principal whether we’re working to improve our exterior lives or interior lives.

So as I write this, the strain in my eyes has almost disappeared. I feel confident that God will guide me to the best way to discipline my son, as I will come from a place of love in my decision making. And I have reminded myself that I want to be strong, resourceful, and productive. I have a goal to make a better life for my family. I can’t do that if I’m wallowing, now can I? So I decided, “No. I will not submit to this.” So I began to write and this is what is happening as I process through.  Now, the emotional stress is also gone. I have only one remaining concern. On that too, I will do what I can and leave the rest to God. That is all I can do. And that covers everything.

This is an example of resourcing and being resourced. All healing and strength comes from our resources. A resource is anything that helps us to feel strong, confident, or know that yes we can do something. It can be a memory, a thing, a place, our faith, whatever it is that we need. There is no right or wrong on it. What an individual needs to be able to do the good that needs to be done, especially when under pressure, is personal.

What matters is that we practice remembering our resources and calling them within ourselves whenever we need them. It doesn’t matter rather it is for something small or large. The more resourced we are, the stronger, wiser, and better our decisions will be. God instructs us to call on Him for everything. This is what He’s talking about. The more we turn to God and His infinite Love for our decision making, the more peace and flow will be in our lives.

I’m experiencing that right now.

Even as I go to deal with my son and his issue.

Because now, once again, I am smiling on the inside.

I hope you do too.

Blessings,

Irene